So this is the first time I have posted on Tumblr for quite a few months, well not a lot has happened really, other than being stressed out at work and having not very much money two days after I get paid. There are quite a few things going on in my head at the moment, but I don’t feel like I can voice them on here, in fear that I will upset people that look at my rants…

Does anyone think it’s weird that I get really excited when I look at Volcom branded clothes. I’ve made the mistake of wandering on to eBay and started looking for new clothes, just before I’m about to go to sleep, which basically means its gonna be around 6am before I drift off now. Not that I can afford any of the things I want, but i have found the pimpest white suit, no idea when I would wear it, but for £50 i cant go wrong…

Well everyone is off doing family things, and I’ve basically been laid in bed all afternoon being very bored and very lonely. I really don’t want to be up here, even tho I would be just as alone back in Richmond. Going out to the pub tomorrow hopefully with all my oldest friends, guessing it’s not gonna be very exciting, since I’ll probably be on my own with a load of couples. Well as far as the rest of tonight goes, anybody fancy chatting on MSN or AIM, my address is afterthisone[at]aim[dot]com, please come save me from dying of boredom…

I’m on the megabus on the way home for christmas, and I thought I’ll go sit at the back, nice and peaceful. Turns out the back seats are reserved for couples, let’s just say the german couple in front of me need to get a fuckin room…

I don’t really know what to write here, it’s just going to be a rant so look away now if you don’t give a shit. I’m so damn tired all the time, when I moved down here I was full of energy for work and study, but now coming up to 3 months later, my body is just completely giving up on me. I have so much to do in my life at the moment, but I just don’t have the energy, and it’s getting me very stressed out and worried that I’m going to fail again. I’ve got work every day now until Christmas eve, when I’ve got to rush straight from work to get the coach home, then I have 3 days off which should be spent sleeping, but I’ve already arranged to go out boxing day. But before then I’ve got so much work to do for my courses, I have at least 10 pieces of work to do before Monday when I have to send them off to be marked. On top of all this I’m worried about the amount of money I’m spending, I planned to pay lots of money back now I’m getting paid a bit, but I’m finding myself borrowing more money all the time. All this is making me quite ill to be honest, on top of the whole body giving up on me, and I really don’t know what to do…

Woo my tickets for Russel Howard just came, row 4 on the left facing the stage, gonna be soo good. Just need to check the tube for Sunday now, because guaranteed they will be fucked and we will get stranded in the middle of London for hours…

I should really be tidying my room at the moment, making room for my new TV I’m (hopefully) getting later, but since I finally got my VGA cable for my xBox yesterday, that’s distracting me, oh well. Finally sorted out what I’m doing for Christmas, finish work at half four on Christmas eve and then rush straight over to Victoria to get the megabus home, get into Manchester at around 11 where my mum and dad are picking me up. Then coming back on the Sunday, possibly with my fridge and my TV table from my room. Then work every day til about the 3rd of January, yes I’m working new years eve and new years day, so not too much boozing at new year, no idea what I’m doing yet…

Today is the last day of eight straight days of work, by whole body is killing me, but with my two days off I cant even just lay in bed because I’ve got so much work to do. But I’ve got lots of fun things to do this coming week as well, tomorrow hopefully I’m getting a huge 50” TV, so I can finally play on my wii that I’ve had for nearly a month now. Then on Sunday I’m going to Wembley arena to see Russel Howard live, which should be amazing. Then next Wednesday I’m off up to Islington to see Set Your Goals, I’m probably lookin forward to seeing them the most, I listen to the new album nearly every day. But for now I suppose I need to get out of bed and have a shower, maybe that will stop me aching so much…

Well so much for having a 3 hour nap, damn you eBay. Just bought some fairy lights though, they are to go around my room because the main light is way too bright for chilling out. They aren’t pretty pink ones like the picture though, they are just plain white ones, but they should do the job. I’m thinking of getting some other coloured ones tho, then i can have my room which ever colour I’m in the mood for…