I don’t really know what to write here, it’s just going to be a rant so look away now if you don’t give a shit. I’m so damn tired all the time, when I moved down here I was full of energy for work and study, but now coming up to 3 months later, my body is just completely giving up on me. I have so much to do in my life at the moment, but I just don’t have the energy, and it’s getting me very stressed out and worried that I’m going to fail again. I’ve got work every day now until Christmas eve, when I’ve got to rush straight from work to get the coach home, then I have 3 days off which should be spent sleeping, but I’ve already arranged to go out boxing day. But before then I’ve got so much work to do for my courses, I have at least 10 pieces of work to do before Monday when I have to send them off to be marked. On top of all this I’m worried about the amount of money I’m spending, I planned to pay lots of money back now I’m getting paid a bit, but I’m finding myself borrowing more money all the time. All this is making me quite ill to be honest, on top of the whole body giving up on me, and I really don’t know what to do…

Woo my tickets for Russel Howard just came, row 4 on the left facing the stage, gonna be soo good. Just need to check the tube for Sunday now, because guaranteed they will be fucked and we will get stranded in the middle of London for hours…

I should really be tidying my room at the moment, making room for my new TV I’m (hopefully) getting later, but since I finally got my VGA cable for my xBox yesterday, that’s distracting me, oh well. Finally sorted out what I’m doing for Christmas, finish work at half four on Christmas eve and then rush straight over to Victoria to get the megabus home, get into Manchester at around 11 where my mum and dad are picking me up. Then coming back on the Sunday, possibly with my fridge and my TV table from my room. Then work every day til about the 3rd of January, yes I’m working new years eve and new years day, so not too much boozing at new year, no idea what I’m doing yet…

Today is the last day of eight straight days of work, by whole body is killing me, but with my two days off I cant even just lay in bed because I’ve got so much work to do. But I’ve got lots of fun things to do this coming week as well, tomorrow hopefully I’m getting a huge 50” TV, so I can finally play on my wii that I’ve had for nearly a month now. Then on Sunday I’m going to Wembley arena to see Russel Howard live, which should be amazing. Then next Wednesday I’m off up to Islington to see Set Your Goals, I’m probably lookin forward to seeing them the most, I listen to the new album nearly every day. But for now I suppose I need to get out of bed and have a shower, maybe that will stop me aching so much…

Well so much for having a 3 hour nap, damn you eBay. Just bought some fairy lights though, they are to go around my room because the main light is way too bright for chilling out. They aren’t pretty pink ones like the picture though, they are just plain white ones, but they should do the job. I’m thinking of getting some other coloured ones tho, then i can have my room which ever colour I’m in the mood for…

That’s another piece of work done, just 56 more to go. I’m going to have a 3 hour power nap I think, even though it will probably make me feel worse when I get up for work. My next day off is Wednesday, my work sucks balls at the moment, maybe people should send me some words of encouragement through my formspring, would be nice to hear from new people…

My first day on confectionery on my own tomorrow, after a whole two days of training, so fuck knows how its going to go. It does mean I have to be there at 4am though, gonna be very bleary eyed at that time walking up to work. Then I got to come home and wash a load of uniforms for the next few days, which I’m getting kinda sick of doing, so I’m going to have work clean them, even though I’m not guaranteed to get my stuff back, but at least it will be cleaned properly, without me spending ages scrubbing them on the kitchen floor. But for the rest of the night I’m going to do some of my work that I’ve been neglecting so far, I have 58 assignments to do before the end of January, I’ve done one…

I must be getting old, I have no stamina for anything, I feel so drained at the moment, work is slowly killing me every day. It doesn’t help that I’m really stressed out about all this work I’ve got to do, I tried to do the two English assessments that had to be in today, but I just couldn’t think of anything to write. I cant do essays at the best of times, but when its a subject that I have no interest in. All I’ve been thinking about over the last few days is moving into this new room, I didn’t feel comfy in the other room anymore, so hopefully when my room is all tidy and how I want it, I’ll be able to concentrate more and maybe get my work done on time…

So today is my day off, which means nothing really because I have so much to do today. First of all I’m moving into my new room tomorrow after work, so I’ve got to pack all my stuff up so I can just push it all across the corridor. I’ve then got to clean this room ready for the new guy that’s moving in either tomorrow night or Wednesday morning. After that I should really do my English assessments, since my tutor wanted them for Wednesday, but i have no idea what I’m going to write for it. And if I get time after all that, I have to make production plans for the whole department at work, well I don’t have to do them, but it will make my life a lot easier, and show the management that I’m ready for management training in a month after my probation period. But I also want to update all my pages on all the various social networking sites that I’m on, since I’ve not been on most of them for at least a month. But I’ll probably get distracted by things and get about half of it done…

Hellooo again Tumblr, this is my first post in nearly two months, not really been in the mood for sharing things, but I’m back now, bet no-one missed me haha. Not that much has happened in my life over the past 7 weeks, I’ve just been working a lot and sleeping whenever I get a spare few hours. I’m moving into a bigger room in a few days which should be awesome, because I’ve over spent way too much on things for my room, and now I cant move in here haha. I finally started my GCSEs again, took long enough to get the course folders tho, due to the courier company that the course people use being a bunch of fuckin cowboys. But I’m settling in quite well at work and into my new surroundings, so live is quite good at the moment, touch wood…